Abort! Abort!

screams the annoying little f*** in my head.

Working in retail is like handing over your brain at security just to get a key for a locker to put your bag in and then to stand on hours like a zombie on a shopfloor looking pretty. Just to be told by tourists "you look pretty" No fu**ing shit Sherlock!!! Arghhhhhhhhh! what a waste of life.

I keep him at arms length even though his demands are increasing. I'd do anything not to become attatched even though that's all he wants.He knows eveything but my name and I'm not giving that away until he gives me something he's thought about, thoroughly.

I love music but I can't seem to see it ever falling into place for me, all I can do is try my hardest and hope for the best. But sometimes that is not enough. I think I'm going to be okay though, eitherway

Here's for trying.

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House of Dolls

I ordered this book into Bethnal Green Library specially and picked it up today. I am halfway through it and already it is the best book I have read in a very long time. The words used for the imagery and emotions make the story almost tangible, I am engrossed and plan to go on reading all night.

'the Germans would lay off the shops for at least a little while.
And what does one crave above all? -a little while.
One more breath, and you might be liberated.'

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RIP Malcolm McLaren

NOOOoooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

He was the Brains behind the beauty of Punk
The embodiment of the great Fuck You to society
He thought past what was exceptable and turned it on its head so we could all get a better view.
At the forefront of fashion and music.
A visionary.Maverick.Genius.

My role model. Its a sad day for music.

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ADHD

Your score is 80 (out of 90).

This questionnaire, though not a substitute for a clinical evaluation, is designed to help you recognize if you may have symptoms of ADD and would benefit from further assessment by a physician or mental health professional.
The answers you provided are consistent with many symptoms of Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD or ADHD). However this is just a screening and is not meant to be a diagnosis. You should contact a competent Psychiatrist, Psychologist or other mental health professional for a comprehensive evaluation.

I understand everything now

getting told off for not being able to sit still
Talking over people/interrupting them midsentance
Forgetting to finish off a task/ being easily distracted
Feeling constantly restless/not being able to stay in a situation for too long.
Zoning out when people talk to me...

if A hadn't mentioned it I would never have known why I act slightly odd and always felt disconnected from everyone.

I feel so much better knowing I'm not a freak.

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