Cardboard Boxes and Fond Farewells

I went in to the Tesco Metro a stones throw from my flat to ask for cardboard boxes.

"What for?" said Mr Full-timer

"Im moving away." Said I

"Don't go, your such a good customer, we're going to really miss you"

Hmmm because I'm your only customer that doesn't steal but actually pays for items?

Or is it 'cause your a bleedin pervert?

And then it hit me the full extent of what I was embarking on and I thought what am I doing? I'm happy here, content even. I don't actually want to go I'm so comfortable around these Tesco guys I don't mind them oggling me when I'm hung over on a Sunday and turn up to buy milk in lastnights clothing/makeup/beergoggles 2 O'clock in the eve. And do you know what Mr Full-timer? I'm actually going to miss you. Your team and your sleazy grin. I am.

And then the sudden realisation that I detest Comfortable, give me Adventure anyday

If lifes not challenging it's not worth living.

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I'd leap in front of a flying bullet for you.

I said this to my best friends/Sisters years ago before I'd even heard this song, we've been through so much crap, it's like a stab in the heart when one of them is hurt. We share a tattoo and we've lived in each others pockets, there's never an akward silence, and to listen in on our conversation is like listening to another language. When we were young if our Mam wanted us she would shout "Farasmataz" (a mixture of all our names) because she knew we were always together and if she called one, we would all come running anyway.

All men have secrets and here is mine
So let it be known
For we have been through hell and high tide
I think I can rely on you ...
And yet you start to recoil
Heavy words are so lightly thrown
But still I'd leap in front of a flying bullet for you
So, what difference does it make ?
It makes none
But now you have gone
And you must be looking very old tonight
The devil will find work for idle hands to do
I stole and I lied, and why?
Because you asked me to
But now you make me feel so ashamed
Because I've only got two hands
Well, I'm still fond of you!
So, what difference does it make?
it makes none.

We will always have each others back even if we fall out I'll always be fond of them and to this day would 'take a bullet' without a moments pause.

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It's CHRISTMASSSSS!

Yaay with the snow, watching it on the way to work today the flakes fell in a whirl like a dance symmetrical in the space between each other accomadating one another in a waltz a beautiful downward spiral before they are crushed together in a final clinch ahhhh who knew I could get so poetic and uncaring about my grammer, it must be the Christmas in the air.

Three things that make my Christmas:

Firstly the song "Jingle Bell Rock" by Bobby Helms, the very essence of Christmas for me.

Second, watching out for the Coca Cola advert, something about the harmonised repetitive "How many days are coming? How many days are coming?" with the Falalala Lah's and the trucks rolling into town in thier military precision bringing the Christmas with them; all official like gets me really excited, it's not Christmas yet until this advert appears.

Third, watching Home Alone with my Dad, I'm not particularly attatched to the film but my Dad finds it incredibly hilarious, the parts when McCauley Caulkin plays the pranks on the crooks has him crying with laughter and he looks at me to say "Isn't that funny? Isn't that kid just the best?" and I laugh because I love watching him laugh; it makes me happy.

I have a kid sister so it's Still a special time for me.
Gonna go build myself a snowman and inevitably it's gonna die on me, but heres for trying.

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Strong like an Amazon.

Set the scene

Day-Ext. A busy road in Knightsbridge.

Dressed in a tight skirt and heels. The suit stops in front of her with a look of awe/admiration.

She smiles confidently back at him and calmly walks away. An immense feeling of power consumes her...

thats right She's all grown up.

End Scene.

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Besotted

besotted
adj
1. stupefied with drink; intoxicated
2. infatuated; doting
3. foolish; muddled

He knows who I am!

Times gone by and his hair is shorter , he's grown taller, he looks different but I can still point him out from a crowd. My friends say talk to him "he's so hot"

He passes me, I reach up and ruffle his hair like I've always done to tease him, and say "I've missed you."

And he replies "Where have you been?" and I laugh and die a little inside.

He's beautiful but now taken, I'm persistant and back for New Years.

Guy's talk to me but I brush them off, I only want him,

"I love the way you look soooo Seventies" A random guy remarks

"Sixties actually" I retort. Get it right, I think as I walk away.

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Beware Untitled CD's

I came accross a blank looking CD, so I put it into the CD player and I got the biggest lump in my throat. It's a burnt disk of all the songs we used to put on before we played on stage, so many memories, alcohol fights with bands, begging ex-gangsters to play in their pub, carting my speakers around, sleeping rough, stupid haircuts, friends 'skanking' on sticky dance floors, getting in trouble for being underage, forgetting set lists, getting paid in lollypops, pogoing into each other whilst people looked on in horror...memories. The Best. I wish I'd known then what I was doing at the time was Unusual but to me it was a natural way to vent our anger.

As Stuart a la Gallows put it nicely "your nothing but glorified ASBO's" Here's a track listing:

1. What's the Matter Baby?- Small Faces

2. Shake- Small Faces

3. I Fought the Law- The Clash

4. Teenage Kicks- The Undertones

5. Kill the Poor- The Dead Kennedy's

6. Is Vic There?- Department S

7. I'm in Love With a Girl- The Freshies

8. Your Generation- Generation X

9. Eton Rifles- The Jam

10. God Save the Queen- Sex Pistols

11. Kid's are United- Sham 69

12. Typical Girls- The Slits

13. Tin Soldiers- Stiff Little Fingers

14. No More Heroes- Stranglers

15. Stranglehold On Me- UK Subs

16. He's So Fine- The Chiffons

17. Be My Baby- The Ronettes

18. Leader of the Pack- The Shangri Las

19. I Wanna Be Sedated- The Ramones

20. Police and Thieves- The Clash

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